well, there was a low and then a high and then a real low and then a high and now there is a what the fuck just happened. i am such a dumb girl. i need to read more. i need to get out more. i need to live more. i am way too consumed by this man. i don’t know what i’m doing anymore. what has become of me. i’m a pretty girl. a kind girl. but, i’m a girl so unsure of herself that no one could ever stand to be with her in this state. i really need to work on myself. i need some sort of balance. pft.